Monday, October 6, 2008

Becoming a Servant

Yesterday church gave us a new prospective on how as Christian's we're called to serve (of course we've always known this but yesterday we felt God's clarity).  We saw the 30,000 ft. view of our lives and how living an average, mediocre life is not God-honoring. The message was inspiring and it completely paralleled how we feel about living our lives as disciples of Christ.  I felt the message was confirmation from God about the decisions we've made recently about serving and helping children.  And boy did I need confirmation because some things have annoyed me lately regarding the direction in which we believe God is calling our family to move, specifically where foster care, adoption and our family growing are involved.

I completely agree that it would be easier to not adopt or foster a child.  It would be so much easier to not be involved with our church and not volunteer to help out in the children's programs, small groups, and lead our own ministry (which is now called the Orphan's Care Team).  It would be easier to put the kids in daycare and go to work and live comfortably on two incomes versus watching every penny as we navigate this life based on what we believe is best for our family.  And at one point I was all about the easiest route.  But I have changed and I have grown to realize that its not all about me.  And the more I grow, the more I pray, the more I'm in the Word, the less I'm able to just sit by and be the mediocre uninvolved person I once was so comfortable being.  

All I want is to live a life of significance.  A life that is more about serving and honoring God than serving and honoring me.  Although I have been a Christian for more than 15 years, I have just begun to see what that looks like.  I'm excited.  I'm terrified.  I'm willing.